My thoughts have never served me well. I am someone that if you tell me to say a mantra, my whole mind goes into war to find where it is not true. So they really don't serve me well, most of the time they create more trouble than help. And even though I am an artist, I am crap at visualizing. The visualizing part I think I understand more than the thoughts. Most of what I have wanted in life hasn't been an object, it has been an experience or feeling. Even in my art, I don'