The Muse was Born of Trauma

 

As a child as my grandfathers passed away, they communicated with me.

As a teen I experienced thought transference and reading the thoughts of others. 

I felt emotions and thoughts that most people didn’t want to know themselves, let alone anyone else. 

 

I was afraid of how I felt, what information came to me and what I knew.  It felt invasive and wrong.  I had no idea that what was showing up in my child-mind were abilities and gifts.  I didn’t know I was a seer, hearer, empath, way-shower, that I had telepathic abilities as well as thought transference ones.  Even if I would have known, I would have asked for it all to be taken away.  It all felt soooo wrong and uncomfortable. 

 

My childhood was fraught with emotional, physical and mental abuse.  

 

At 15 I moved out.  16 I was emancipated. 

 

A Mild Mannered People Pleaser

 

I went to counselors for the level of trauma in my life from the age of 4.  They validated my pain.  They listened. They were kind and felt bad for me.  At no point did they ever tell me how to change my experience.  They told me how to cope with it, but not how to create a different experience. I NEEDED to know how to experience and create a different existence.  I needed to know that there were choices available beyond what I could see.

 

I wanted to belong, be safe and to know the rules so I could be considered good. So, I didn’t just go to church, I immersed myself.  

 

I was a mild mannered people pleaser.  But somewhere deep in me was a voice that wouldn’t be filtered or softened.  I hated that voice.  It would show up through me at times that were most inopportune.  

 

I joined many groups, to learn, become and belong.  Group after group was amazing and filled with gorgeous people and wonderful teachings, but each time the voice inside would pipe up and say, “But there is something more.  This is not it, you must be the difference.   It is here that you must go, even if it is alone.”

 

I Gave Up and Started to LISTEN

 

I had silenced them for a while, a good decade.  I lived a normal life, I didn’t hear things or feel things - I was numb, the good robotic wife, mother and worker and content, or so I thought.  My life and body gave me a few wake up calls - I nearly died, my marriage blew up and my career was on the line.  Finally, I began to be willing to listen to the parts of me that I judged.

 

The how was not mapped out, as I begged for it to be.  It was like a scavenger hunt that gave me one clue at a time.  Funny how the Universe wants to bring us to a playful state of being all the time.  I don't know that I thought it was playful at first, more infuriating, but I knew I had to go on this hunt and follow the clues because the 'safe', 'predicatable' life wasn't actually so safe or predictable.

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So, The Muse Method was born out of struggle, pain, desire and mainly a willingness to follow that voice within despite myself.  It was born out of a desire to use all the information I constantly receive from others and help them to feel their power to create, not just in the etheric world, but right here on earth, in the physical.  

 

It is when I am in the space of these sessions that I feel most at home.  It is when I become a vessel to hear and see that which has been buried.  I can give it a voice and form, so that finally the client can know themselves and their way forward and unlock the miracle of HOW to create in a way that is truly magical, divinely personal, and beyond logic.

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Here is the thing, the thing that was buried is us.  It is our essence, our way, our voice, our gifts etc. That is what I bring up and out during The Muse Method and what I inuit in my own life as well as for others. 

 

HOW Muse Method is Born

 

But I bet you’re wondering, HOW exactly did this technique manifest itself?  

 

It was the willingness to ask a client in my chair if I could try something different.  At the time, I was doing in person sessions and everything inside of me was screaming, “move your hands to where you sense they are aching inside, listen, ask questions”….questions to find out what that voice inside them was saying.  

 

I could see that each client that I ‘cleared’ with other methods came back with more of the same that needed clearing and their focus was always their problems, when inside something was calling out to be unearthed, revealed, relished and embraced.  I knew I could hear that part calling out, so when I asked my client if I could tap into that place in them that wanted to be revealed, they were all too ready and trusting in me. I realized that the Muse is a concept. An archetype. A personal path.

 

So, I kept asking more and more clients if they would allow me to try follow this awareness.   The results were astonishing.  They glowed.  Pains that had been in their bodies for months if not years, moved.  Businesses began to flourish, relationships transformed and my clients began to talk about celebrations and miracles.  How could I not continue to do this technique that called to me from each person’s body and asked me to facilitate it?  

 

Don’t get me wrong, my clients still bring me problems and struggles, but they know that we will look for how to change their experience and to pull the power, wisdom and miracles out of them in order to do it.  Why?  Because their own path is more powerful than learning mine or anyone else’s.  Revealing their abilities and capacities to thrive in life while giving them the freedom and permission to use them is life-changing.  

 

It Continues to Grow and Change

 

I had a client one day ask if I could do this remotely.  It was back in 2019.  

 

I hadn’t done it, but I was willing to try.  I knew that I could read people without being in person, but my worry was that they wouldn’t experience the powerful transformation remotely.  

 

I was so wrong.  

 

In that session I realized how empowering it is to guide the client to use their own hands on their body, while I listened and directed energy.  It allowed them to know that they house within them the power to connect, embrace and invite themselves into their fullness, so that they could facilitate themselves in between their powerful sessions.  It was a blessing to be able to know this and be moving towards this prior to the lockdown and pandemic of 2020.  This allowed me to support clients across the United States, Canada, England and the Philippines in times that could have been more difficult if they weren’t tapped into their Muse and their power!  

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